How do guys become gay?

I became bisexual (not gay) due to my own curiosity and persistance lol

Here’s my dirty story..

I remember one day I just decided to experiment with my body back when I was like 15. I thought “the anus is not meant for sex, both male and female anus is anatomically the same, and both seem to enjoy it, so basically…anyone could feel pleasure in that area, even if I’m not gay, what would it feel like? why they make those loud noises?”

And then I decided to experiment with small things. I decided it wasn’t for me, but..something small in my subconscious remained. Months after, I wanted more. I kept asking myself “I didn’t like it, but why do women and gay men like it so much if it didn’t feel good?” and I had to try again.

I remembered that in the past I heard girls say that the first time wasn’t that good, and that it even hurts. I even thought about how some girls seem to feel uncomfortable the first time with guys. So, I thought “Maybe even girls don’t like it that much at first, but then, maybe I should just keep trying a few times, to get closer to what it’s like, they seem to force it a little. Besides, I’m not really going deep”

I wasn’t thinking about guys nor I didn’t want to. The idea of having sex with guys was disgusting, I was just trying to see what was so special about the sensation. This time I went deeper, I sort of liked it, and this time I was more conscious about it, but again, it wasn’t big deal. I thought to myself “Okay I see, it may feel good, but nah, it’s not for me, not at all”

Months later I wanted to do it again, this time it wasn’t much about curiosity, this time it was because I simply wanted more. Of course over the course of 2–3 years I kept experimenting with larger things, going deeper, going faster, different positions. I was just enjoying the sensation. At some point however, I thought “But wait, this isn’t even the best I can simulate, I should try to imagine the actual thing”

I went further. I started to imagine the shape of some imaginary guy under me while I was “riding” and doing my thing. At first it was uncomfortable, but again I thought “Maybe that awkward feeling would be right as well”

One day I decided to push a little more, this time keep imagining the guy even if it felt sort of uncomfortable, but keep doing it because the physical pleasure was good and do it till the end, I got used to it. Same process with their sexual parts, and same process when I started to imagine hot guys I met in real life. The idea of pushing it a little further even if at first I wasn’t very comfortable was sort of exciting on its own.

As you can see it took me years to fully fantasise being with guys. I didn’t fully accept it, I was like..” But I only like this, only this way, only this position, it’s just the sensation, it’s just the toy, it’s just once, this is the last one, etc.”

I decided the best thing was to accept it, I love it and it has never intefered once with my sexual attraction for women. Both sensations are so unique on its own way.